Mixed Signals

So, yesterday was sadies:) & it was really fun. Although we didn't dance! Cause he doesn't like to dance, it was still pretty funn! Sitting outside the dance, talking, counting how many stars there were in the sky, looking at shooting stars(aka airplanes), breaking pinkies in the midst of pinky promises, tying our shoelaces together! Hahaha:) Or keeping each other warm with my long hair? LOL! It was a pretty fun night! OHOH & then watching Mirrors at my house afterwards, omgah! It was SUCHA scary movie! Like no joke, slitting throats and like opening jaws, ;KJBSA;F GROSS:( I was scared outta my pants! I feel so silly saying this.. but I kindof felt like we were, in a way, flirting. I feel so weird saying that! Cause like I know we're just friends, you're like my bestfriend. I tell you almost everything, well everything that I need to know from a boys perspective! Except we were so close yesterday.. and I started to get my hopes up, like maybe he does like me! Except I don't want to get my hopes up, cause I'll only have to watch them fall. I hate doing this to myself, setting myself up only to be let down. I was watching Bruce Almighty today, and then the "god" in the movie, was like: People always expect me to do things but the power is within themselves. Be the miracle. Idk, I think it's somewhat true. Like God is here to help you, and to guide you. You just have to leave everything up to Him, and continue to do what you're doing. So you kindof have power, but you kindof don't? I don't know, it's so confusing! I'm so confused! Are these mixed signals? Am I just over analyzing the situation? Maybe we weren't even flirting at all, maybe I'm just thinking we were. Maybe you don't even like me and I'm totally hallucinating.. but what if you do? & What if we were. How am I supposed to know these things! I'll never have the courage to ask you, cause I'm too scared of rejection. Aiyahhhh, I asked two people what I should do today. One say to let it be, whatever happens, happens. The other told me I'll never know unless I ask, so I really don't know what to do! This confusion is making me really frustrated and I really just want to cry. I just miss you, I miss us. I'm not sure if I should be missing you or missing us, but I do. & I have no idea what to do.