June 4, 2009

Done with freshman year, got out alive, thank God:) Couple broken bones, black eyes, sprained fingers, broken hearts, eh I'll survive. I think this year has been really, mm, what's the word, not really interesting, well yeah it's been interesting but rather mesmerizing. I believe that's the word. I've been through so much this year and I seriously wouldn't have gotten through it if it weren't for all my friends and God. I know it's so cliche to say but seriously they picked me up when I was down, I hit rock bottom & they were there for me no matter what. If I knew this is where I would end up I would have never believed it. I never believed I could grow so close to some people and drift so far away from others. I can't say that I don't regret a couple things but I can say that I know they happened for a reason. Let me recall what happened in the beginning of the year.. hmm, I walked onto campus on the first day and I got soooo lost.. there were so many rooms in the B building! & Don't even get me started on the E building, the rooms go from 1 to 7 back to 2 it's ridiculous. It seemed as each day went slower and slower and I just wanted to get out. Then things started to turn up(: Met a couple people who made my days worthwhile! Next thing I know, school's over. & it seemed so unreal. It was like seniors can't be leaving! Who else am I supposed to hear say "Chonchh!" or tell all my problems to. I just didn't realize that they would ever leave until they were gone. I remember seniors last days, I was bawling. It was like everything I've come to known and finally got used to is now leaving. Like seeing Amanda & Madison and giving them hugs after first. Or walking into Wendland's class that always smells like popcorn. It just, it makes me sad to know that next year it's gonna happen again. Then the year after that I'm gonna lose more friends, and then the last year I don't even want to think about that! I can't even imagine my year, when I'm the one in the cap and gown instead of the one sitting in the bleachers seeing them all go. I guess realizing htat everything is going to change next year, just kindof scares me. Me & change aren't that compatible. I love the way things are, I love everybody in my life and I really don't want to let them go. Mm, but I guess that's what life's all about. New chapters in life and new people introduced in them. Everybody's telling me that highschool is gonna go by in a blink of an eye, and now, I finally believe them. Thanks seniors '09 for teaching me so much. Amanda Cadena, I owe you a million for basically teaching me almost everything I know now. To know what I deserve and never, ever to settle for anything less :)