June 26, 2009

I took you for granted every day. I seriously miss you, like so much. It's weird because I never really had you for months before and I never really cared and now that I don't have you anymore, I care so much. Just reading what you say and knowing exactly what you're talking about and WANTING to call you to make sure you're okay. But realizing that you probably don't need me anymore or don't want me anymore. It's crazy because before I would always remember our bad times but forget our good times. Now, I have flashbacks to knotts for CJSF and sleepovers. Getting ready for choir concerts before hand. Midnight calls, so when it hits 12 am exactly, we knew that we started the day talking to each other. The fact that I could have called you at any moment I wanted to and you would have picked up(unless you were napping). The fact that I could be crying and not even say anything but you'd know exactly what was wrong. I know we got into a lot of fights and we weren't always on each others' good side. But that's what made everything worth it for me. That's what made you so special that I could STILL call you my bestfriend after everything. Now, it just all back fired. You probably don't care about me writing this, and maybe all of your friends will laugh at me for it. But I miss you.