Disappointment

I am a huge disappointment to everybody. To my parents, for not getting better grades. To not always listening to them. They do so much for me and I take it all for granted. To God, for everything that I KNOW yet I choose to go down the wrong path. And it takes 10x the effort to get back on the right track. To all my friends who believed in me and who saw something in me. To everybody who ever believed I could be great. I feel so despicable. & If you're wondering no, I didn't do anything wrong. Well totally wrong. I'm not pregnant, I didn't have sex, I didn't do drugs, I didn't get drunk. Just from today, from learning, from everything, it's about time I change. I'm on the fence from the world and from God. I need to hop over onto God's side. And never, ever jump onto the other side. I really hope that this time I say this, I actually follow through. I've wanted this for so long. Always saying I'll change and all that crap. Yet, I never do a thing. I start something for a couple days and if I'm lucky, a couple weeks. Then I stop cause I get lazy or busy. This is it, I'm done with that. I know I can do this. Nothing will stop me because I have the one most important thing with me; God. "For nothing is impossible with God."- Luke 1:37.