Summer Sunshine

Boyohboy! Wow, I don't think I've blogged about my HAPPINESS in awhile! Like, maybe the fact that I've been going out so much lately! I'm going to the beach in 6 hours-_- Ohwell, I chose to sit here and blog. Tehehe! Anyways, hmm.. OHOHOHOH OMGGGGGG WE WONNNNNN! Like seriously, who would've thought?! & Now Amber is the official teen girl of gatorade :) And Marisanne is the spokesteenager thing for Mikasa! And I'm... just me, and 100% okay with that! I feel like I didn't get any sponsors or deals is because I'm 4 years younger than them AND because God feels like water polo isn't and should never be my #1. Those girls have dedicated their life to become olympians, and they've achieved it. Me on the other hand, I'm dedicating my life, to Jesus Christ. :) I got really sick after I got back.. Then I got better! And went to polo practices and everything! Then Friday came and my mom was just being a total jerk to me, or maybe I was being a total jerk, you never know man.. But either way, we were feuding and how she always has to take care of other people besides me, her own daughter, sometimes I'm just so sick of having to share my mother. I mean, she spends time with the people she takes care of more than she spends time with me. But I have to admire my mother, that she is willing to give up her time to help others who are less fortunate. I went shopping and spent way too much money.. then I went to church and did my thang.. I really don't even wanna go there, like I feel like all the teenagers just DON'T listen! Been there, done that.. Don't EVER wanna go there again! It's like, now I feel for my parents. That they tell me something and I know not to do it, yet I still do it and the outcome is just like how my parents told me it would be. But I just had to learn the hard way. It's like I'm telling them all that you need to know and that Satan is going to attack you during highschool more than ever because he knows that you're vulnerable and through everything you just need to be rooted deep in God.. because if you're not, you're going to fall away. Just like I did. But I guess they don't believe me or they don't care.. because I don't think any of them listened. But I guess that's in God's hands now.. Saturday I went to Wong's house & sleptover :) Watched Hannah Montana movie! FINALLY! It was soooooo goood.. :) Sunday, I did something so spectacular.. I sang infront of the whole congregation! For me, that's a HUGE step for me.. Because usually I sing in the car or in the shower or in my room when I'm blasting music. Or I'm with 50 other girls on stage infront of hundreds, but how can you seperate my voice from 50 others? You can't. Which is why I sing with them. But I just sang with Nick. At first I was so nervous, I was like God.. I can't do this. I was doubting myself. Then just the Holy Spirit came in me and just calmed my fears and I remembered the conference, "Do Hard Things". That's what I'm here to do. I'm here to do the hard things most people DON'T do, to show them that I'm the difference. That I'm not ordinary, that I have the power of the Holy Spirit :) & I love every single second of it! GOOOOODNIGHT WORLD! Beach in less than 8 hrs<3