Mistakes

I noticed, I'm not anything I'm "supposed" to be. My aunt this morning told my dad how great I was because I didn't sneak out of the house and go to parties and come back drunk like her daughter does. I think that's so ridiculous. This reminds me of the Rebellution conference I went to, why are we expected to go do such outrageous things? Most of my friends like about 50% of the people that I know go to parties and get drunk or get high or lose their body to somebody they just met.. I look around me and everybody is so corrupted. How could you make out, let alone KISS somebody you just met less than an hour ago?! I just don't understand. Your body is so sacred, God made it, He stitched every flaw and every talent together and created you. He knew you inside out before you were born, in your mothers womb. "For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well." Psalms 139: 13-14. How could you give it away... I just don't understand it. I've been with someone for 4 months, and I haven't even kissed him yet! Well, not WITH him, but like aiyah I dont even wanna get started with him. ANYWAYS! I just pray that teenagers now, will just wake up. I see little 8th graders who have siblings in highschool go to parties with them. These things that people think is pleasure, is so not... If you're lost and you need help, don't go to parties to get wasted and lose your dignity there. Dig deep in the word of God and ask Him to help you, because I guarantee you that it's 100000000x BETTER than going to that stoopid party. You don't even have to believe in Him to talk to Him, but He'll still listen and He'll still help you. Because whether or not you're muslim, christian, buddhist, you are His creation and He will always be there for you.

You're so special, you're His and yet no matter how many times I tell you, you never fully capture it. I just really hope you know what you're doing because ALL of the girls know your secret.. and you're not gonna make the cut this November. Get your act together and prove to us that you're worth our time and worth the risk. You're not that good and you're most definitely not nice. I know I'm being harsh but this is the reality, and you're on the chopping block.. You weren't like this before, stop trying to be somebody you're not. You say you're a Catholic, then start to act like one. There's a reason why we shouldn't drink until we're 21, and its because it's bad for your health. Last year you nearly fainted once and it was because you went to a party the day before and you got WASTED. That was God signal to you that you need to stop. Yet, you choose not to listen. I've told you countless times before and I've sugar coated it every single time. I'm done sugar coating things for you. You're a big girl and you need to act like one and grow up.

For you, I just, what you told me yesterday, I was so insanely shocked. You're one of my bestfriends and for you to do that, I just I don't know what to say or what to tell you. I love you and I want to spend forever with you! When we die, I wanna be able to go watch movies with you and Kchung;) Again, going back to being pure and Godly. "Do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own, you were bought at a price. Therfore honor God with your body." 1 Corinithians: 19-20 I just, I still don't really know what to say to you. But I want you to know that no matter what you EVER do, I will always be here for you. When you realize that you need God in your life again and you want to be on fire for Him, come back to Him and He will forgive you for everything and repent. I asked you yesterday if you were going to repent, and what you said just hurt me so bad.. That God said you couldn't have sex before marriage and what you did wasn't sex. I know it wasn't sex, but it was sexually impure. I love you and you'll always have me here and I know that you'll have Kchung too. We're here for you, and soon, you will realize that you need Him and you will come back. You're so beautiful and I know your heart is good, but I think you're just a little bit lost right now.. and that's okay, because I was lost too! Actually, I kindof stilll am, but I'm working on it. But you know that you have me to be here for you for support. I just don't want to see you go down the wrong path.. I hope you don't get mad at me for this because all I want to do is to help you while I help myself. Because we need one another, we need each other to finish this race! I just told kchung yesterday that I have no idea what I would do without her or you or Wynnie. I need all of you guys by my side, because I know that Satan is trying to take over my mind and my heart but when it's 4 to one, we're gonna ownnnn him. And kick him out so far and so hard that he won't DARE come back. I need you just as much...