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I feel so broken. I don't even know why I ever put any faith in you.. I really thought we could actually be friends.. but we can't. We're not meant to be anything. You can't even treat me like a friend, yet you go on and say that we should all be "brothers and sisters". How hypocritical. I seriously DON'T understand what I've ever done to you, I thought I was actually trying but I don't know. Maybe that's just me, maybe I'm really not trying at all. Just, I wish you would talk to me.. Like if you thought I wasn't trying enough, I wish you would just tell me. Or if you think that we SHOULDN'T be friends, just let me know!! Because I'd rather know the truth, then be hanging here.. because I'm gonna let go soon. I'm tired of standing on this pedestal, ten feet off the ground. You know that I care about you and I wanna be your friend, but I just wish you'd tell me how YOU feel. I don't want anything from you, seriously, all I want is to be your friend and to be there for you if you ever need me and for you to be there for me if I ever need you. But we don't even have that kindof relationship anymore. That kindof trust or closeness to be able to actually go to one another for help.. We're just kindof like strangers.. I don't even know who you are anymore. Whenever we talk, which is always online, it's just dead talk. It's talk that I could have with anyone, not with someone who I've known for 4 years or used to be bestfriends with. We used to be those people and I know we're not anymore because people change, but I mean there has to be SOME part of us that are still those people back then. What happened to us.. I mean not just you, but me as well.