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People are a part of your life: friends, family, enemies. There's a part that we play in other's lives as well. But when they leave and their part is over, what do we do? As much as we want them to stay, and as much as we'll miss them when they leave.. we have to let them go. Their part in the story is over. And you've got to know when people's part in your story is over so that you don't keep trying to raise the dead. You've got to know when it's dead. You've got to know when it's over. It sucks though cause you never really see it coming. You kindof have a feeling something is wrong but you never imagine that the end is so close. You do everything in your power to stop it from coming but it comes anyways. You'll do anything to just keep what you have even if it does hurt a little more when you're forced to let go. I've learned recently that we take everything we have for granted. We believe with our hearts and just knock reality out of the picture. We believe what we want to believe and nothing else. Though that's wonderful to have dreams but when you find out what you believed in is over and you're thrown back into reality. Ohboy, it's hell. Trust me, been there, done that.. twice. & I would've thought that I would've learned the first time not to let my guard down so easily. But sillysilly me.

I don't know if your part in my story is over yet. I sure hope not! But if it is the end, then I just wish you a happy life. For that's all I want for you, the best. If I'm not in that, then so be it, but I wish for you to be the happiest. Not to think about troubles and worries for you have so much planned for you. You're going to do big things, I have no doubt about that. But if you ever think about me, I hope you think happy thoughts :)

In TWO DAYS I will be officially a freshman. I have no idea what it's like, I don't know if I'll like it, I might get lost, I can't open my locker. That's the next four years of my life right there. I am scared out of my PJ pants! I got my books a week ago, I had to get Sam's too, ohmydearLord. I looked like a complete idiot. I swear, those books are heavy! I dropped them about 9876543210 times :( And I even dropped it on my baby toe! Then I got to my locker and it was a bottom one -___- I was so disappointed, and then I opened it... AND THERE WAS A FREAKING SPIDER!! Ohmycow, it was freaking scary! So I was pissed cause there was a nasty creature living in my locker and it was too short for me. So I get home and I find all the shortest people ever and ask if they have tall lockers, hoping I could trade. I asked Moanna, Madison (A girl I'm not that fond of, that's how desperate I was -_-), Caity, and then atlast! KEVIN QUON ! He traded with me and then I was sooper happy. So then before waterpolo I went to go checkout my new locker.. and I couldn't freaking open it -_- Seriously, that's my luck. So on the first day of school, I'm going to look retarded with four books in one hand and trying to open my locker :( What do I think of highschool right now? Not very fond of it. But hopefully in the next four years, I grow to like it!