listen to yourself

Is it a sign? That today for english homework I had to do this dumb chart thing for Ms. White & it was like describe the theme for some part of the book. And I thought about it and I wrote down what I felt was the theme. I wrote : 'Don't hide your feelings, because the longer you hold back & bottle your feelings. The more it hurts when you think about it. So just come clean about everything.' And I just wrote that without even thinking about it. Then I went back and re-read what I just wrote and it just totally amazed me. Wow, I should totally listen to myself. Like what I'm saying is so true. So why can't I just tell you? I stare into the moon at night. And I just ponder on my life. Where I'm at, if I'm content, how I can be better. I pray to God that tomorrow I will just have the courage to speak up & say something to you. But I'm just so scared that you just don't need me as much as I need you.

Today I had a lovely conversation with Kelvin Mak. My new bestfriend forever! He just made me realize so much. & Telling me about him and his mainsqueeeze. But we related on so many terms! & I thank God that I talked to Kelvin today :) I miss biology class over the summer with that fool !<3

OMGOMGOMG ! SCHOOOOOOOOOL.
Mmmmmmkay! First comes first... THE PEPRALLLYYY! YAYYYYYYYY. My Oh My! It was sooo fun! Like seriously, the freshman didn't even know what to do! So whenever the seniors started to cheer, we started to cheer. HAHAH. It was so fun though. But freshman lost :( BUUUUUUUUUTT! It was tottally rigged, because EVERYBODY knew that freshman were louder than sophmore! My senior friends & junior friends were like 'you should have won! You guys were so loud!' Yeah, so they cheateeed :)
During sixth period I have waterpolo :( So I got into the pool like any other day and started with my 300 warm ups! & Then Ally told us to do 50 sculling w/ kick & then 50 tread & then 50 head up & then 50 head down four times. That was all going soo well! & Then she gets to like 4 100's of building. When you slowly but surely get faster and at the end you're sprinting. So on my second 100, I was on the last lap and the girl in front of me, Sophie, is going somewhat slow & I try to pass her.. Well I guess she didn't want me to or something so she BREASTROKE KICKS !!! Like what the heck ?!?!?! When we're doing freestyle?! Like are you stoopid?! And she kicks me right in the eye -_- & I was wearing goggles, which makes it so much worse because it adds more pressure. So I stopped and I didn't think it was anything, I thought it would go away in like 10, 15 minutes. So I just kept swimming. Then on my way back from my third 100, Kristen stops me & says.. 'WOAAHHH! What happened to your eye?!?!' And I just told her Sophie kicked me and she tells me to go to the restroom and look at my eye.. I go... and when I look into the mirror I see that I have a black eye -________- THAT IS RIDICULOUSSSSSSS ! I was just sooo upset, wow. So I told Autumn and she went to go get me ice :( Hahahah but when I went to Pai & Summer was there. Summer was like 'You should make up a story. Cause saying you got kicked in the face is lame. So just say that you got in a fight... at Mt. Sac and came back with a blackeye but daaaang! You should've seen the other girl :)' HAHAH & That was hilarious.
OHOHOH! & The girl that kicked me in the face doesn't shave her armpits. And I showed the girls and Anthony just so happened to be there & he was like 'she just wants to be naaaaaturrrraaaallll' HAHAHAHA ! & We're like uhmm okay... and then he says 'Or maybe she's saving it for winter !' HAHAHAHAHA that just made my day! :)
So thank you Kelvin Mak & Anthony Nguyen for making my day!