Darling Dearest,

OMG! So I finally finished shopaholic:) WYNNIE, AREN'T YOU PROUD OF ME?! I'm very proud of myself, but ohmygoodness! I ABSOLUTELY LOVE IT. It's outright the most incredible love story, ever. Luke Brandon, I want my own Luke Brandon. Anyways, I've not much to post.. since nothing has happened lately. But I guess I have some stuff to say..

Tomorrow is the blood drive! I'm so excited:) I'm missing Johannsen, but I kindof wanted to stay for that.. Mm, ohwell! I'm not with snuffy!:( She's leaving English & I'm leaving world history:( We should have both left 3rd period, awww! That was basically why we're doing this blood drive, so we could cut class TOGETHER. Not that we're never together, we really are. We're two peas in a pod really! Wherever one goes, the other follows. Mm, ohwell:) Next blood drive! Oh & if you're 17 or older and you're reading this and you go to WHS then you should tell me so you can sign up for the next blood drive too! KTHANKS!

FRIDAY IS DISNEYLAND♥ I'm so excited, it's gonna be the best day. Me & my choir babies in the happiest place on earth! It's gonna be a fun day, I can tell. I only have to go to school for French & English, I don't wanna stay for French but English I don't mind. It's not that boring, we're usually preoccupied anyways. OH ahaha, in French, me & Henry always have feasts:) FRENCH FEASTS!

Mr. De Shan talk-
indoboi22 (9:12:08 PM): his class is gonna be boring tomorrow

celinium cerium (9:12:09 PM): i need more euros henryy

celinium cerium (9:12:11 PM): HAHAHA I KNOWWW

celinium cerium (9:12:15 PM): i'm so freaking NOT excited for it

indoboi22 (9:12:18 PM): I NEED EUROS TOO

celinium cerium (9:12:22 PM): i'll bring the skittles

celinium cerium (9:12:24 PM): and youbring the water

indoboi22 (9:12:26 PM): haahha

indoboi22 (9:12:26 PM): true

indoboi22 (9:12:27 PM): yay

celinium cerium (9:12:29 PM): and we'll have a feast!

indoboi22 (9:12:30 PM): ok

celinium cerium (9:12:31 PM): HAHA

indoboi22 (9:12:33 PM): YES

indoboi22 (9:12:43 PM): a EUROPEIAN FEAST

celinium cerium (9:12:46 PM): HAHAHAHA

celinium cerium (9:12:48 PM): A FRENCH FEAST

Ms. White Talk-

indoboi22 (9:15:06 PM): was she here today?

celinium cerium (9:16:09 PM): yeahh

celinium cerium (9:16:12 PM): but she won't be here tmrw
indoboi22 (9:18:39 PM): how do u know?

celinium cerium (9:19:14 PM): cause she told us

indoboi22 (9:19:36 PM): oh really?

indoboi22 (9:19:44 PM): why wont she be here?

celinium cerium (9:21:01 PM): conference

indoboi22 (9:21:23 PM): ok

indoboi22 (9:21:27 PM): u cant tell right now

indoboi22 (9:21:34 PM): but im smiling really hugely

He makes me smile, really hugely:)






I'm really sorry, I'm sorry my emotions have gone hay-wire. I don't know how I feel right now, it's just really unstable. I'm sorry I mislead you or gave you the wrong idea. Although I really wanted it to work it, I did. I just didn't want something fake. As of now, I like you, I do. Just not enough.. not enough where I can say there's going to be an 'us' in the near future. I'm sorry I effed up, I screwed up, big time. I should have just kept my mouth shut and never said anything about it. But it slipped and I was vulnerable. I'm not easy, nononoNO, I am NOT. But you're always there, saving me. Always there to catch me when I fall and although the one I wish was actually there to catch me, he's never here. So you, you come from under and you sweep me off my feet. Kindof like Superman. My own Superman, my own Luke Brandon. How Luke sweeps Becky off her feet and just cherishes her. Even though she goes out and spends all his money, ehehe. Just thank you, I wanted to make it work but not if I'm such a huge mess. Not if I'm like this, I know it sounds so cliche but it's totally me and not you. Just, make the best of your life now. Don't hold back, if there's somebody special for you. Don't wait for me, because I don't know when or if I'll ever be ready.