Into The Ocean

So the past couple days I've slept no earlier than three thirty:( I'm exhaaaaaaausted! BUT, one more final and then I'm done. So studystudystudy tonight and tmrw reeeeelaaaaaxxxx and then Friday's the big day! FUSE Retreat:)) I'm so ready to just run away and feel the coldness of the mountains and leave all of my stress and worries behind. Starting Friday, I'm fresh! A weekend with God & nobody else. Can't wait! Mm, so today's finals were kindof easy. Especially cause I stayed up until like four studying for all of them. My french one was surprisingly the hardest one:( There were so many words I didn't know! & The listening part was like saaay waaaah..? Ahahaha. But tmrw that will all change, when I take my english final:( Booooooo! Hmmm, so today's polo game was smaaashing! We did a great job, well my team did. I personally did horrible, we were up 15-3 when I got in and when I got out it was 16-8:((( I'm so sadddd! I have no idea why I did so horribly today, maybe because I had so much on my mind. But that is no excuse, ANDDD! I really don't know why they took out the starters. Like forreaaaaaaaal?! I had to go one on one with the biggest girl(MAN) I've ever seen! Even Matt was like don't feel bad cause that girl wasn't even a girl. Speaking of Matt, I think he hates me:( So tmrw, my goal is to ask him why do you haate me? Hehehehe. Anywaysss, back to studying! Au voir! <-- that wasn't even on our final-_- & neither was Bonjour or any of the easy stufff, grrr! Kbyeeeeeeeee!


The lighthouse beam has just run out, I'm cold as cold as cold can be
I want to swim away but don't know how
Sometimes it feels just like I'm falling in the ocean
Let the waves up take me down, let the hurricane set in motion
Let the rain of what I feel right now come down, let the rain come down
Where is the coastguard, I keep looking each direction
For a spotlight, give me something, I need something for protection
Maybe flotsam junk will do just fine, the jetsam sunk, I'm left behind
I'm treading for my life believe me
How can I keep up this breathing not knowing how to think
I scream aloud, begin to sink
My legs and arms are broken down with envy for the solid ground
I'm reaching for the life within me