Sneezes & Bless You's!

Gahhh, I've been sneezing for so long:( It kindof sucks! Especially when you need to sneeze but you can't.. and there's like no sun to look at:( Today I had a world history test and I'm pretttty sure I got like a B or bettter! Well, hopefully:) I don't wanna jinx anything, but yeeah. It was pretty easy & since I won the game yesterday I got to ask a freebie question. And like I asked a question and everybody was like OMGOMG that was SO easy or like omgosh.. & I was like well shuttup, you didn't win, I did! So I get to ask the question.. Gosh, it's so stoopid how people are like that was soooo easy blahblahblah. OHOH, speaking of history! I got into AP euro & AP human geo:) Yayyyyyyy! I'm exciteeed to take it with Lois & Snuffs! It's gonna be funnnn! Well, not the learning part but having it with all my franss! Hmm, I'm just kindof recapping since I last blogged.. OH, so I'd like to thank one of my DEAREST friends:) Because he is willing to sleep late, just to help me. & He is willing to help me and listen to my problems when nobody else will:) He knows who he is and there's nothing else I can say but thank you, for everything you're doing for me to get me back on my feet! Tmrw I have a choir concert:) EVERYBODY SHOULD COME WATCH! Prelude to Spring Concert, $5 tickets! COME COME COME! @ 7 pm in the performing arts center! So I was thinking and like, I really don't want to think about this situation anymore. Like idk, but I kindof feel like we're growing apart already, for some reason. I don't even want to believe it, and I'm hoping like REALLY hoping you'll prove me wrong. & That everything is the same as it was last week. I don't really wanna pray about you anymore, as in asking God to give you back to me. Cause no matter how many times I ask Him, if He doesn't think it's right for me, then He won't do it for me. Cause He won't make me go through anything He doesn't think I can handle. And I have complete faith and trust in my Lord that He'll settle everything if I just let it all go. But it's kindof hard, to really let it go. To have NO control over anything.. But I can do it, cause I've got the best people in the world to help mee:) Gah, I'm gonna stop caring what you think about me anymore. & If I wanna do something, I'm gonna do it. Cause it's so stoopid, the way things are right now. How I'm too scared to smile at your or talk to you or whatever, LAME;) I was thinking today when my mom picked me up from rehearsals, and like.. in 20 years, I'm gonna be a mom. Like, I think this is my life forever.. but in four years, I'm going to graduate. In 10 years, I'm going to get married.. This is just so insane! Like for so long, I've been living in this little 'teenage bubble' where I only think of now now now. And not my future, how will what I do now affect my future? Idk, it just kindof shocked me how I've been so trapped inside of my own world. Today at school, I think child care had to take care of little kids for the day. And I saw the CUTEST little boy, ever! He was just so cute, I wanted to keep him.. Then I talked to Snuffs about it, and I was thinking that if I could, I would want a baby right now. As in, if I had enough money to support it, if I could handle school and taking care and spending time with him/her. Then I would totally have one! Cause I just really love kids. Like I want one so bad, not gonna happen ANYTIME soon, but in my dreams I wish I could have one right now! Which is also why I want to get married young and have children young, but idk. Just a thought eheheh.