Butterfly Fly Away

"You tucked me in, turned out the light
Kept me safe and sound at night
Little girls depend on things like that

Brushed my teeth and combed my hair
Had to drive me everywhere
You were always there when I looked back

You had to do it all alone
Make a living, make a home
Must have been as hard as it could be

And when I couldn't sleep at night
Scared things wouldn't turn out right
You would hold my hand and sing to me

Caterpillar in the tree
How you wonder who you'll be
Can't go far but you can always dream

Wish you may and wish you might
Don't you worry, hold on tight
I promise you there will come a day
Butterfly fly away

Butterfly fly away, butterfly fly away
Flap your wings now you can't stay
Take those dreams and make them all come true"

I have no idea who or where I would be without my parents. I know they're divorced and I hate that, but I love them. My dad provides for me, everything.. All the food I eat and all the clothes that I wear. Though he goes through his own problems and his own frustrations, he protects me from them. My dad is seriously my pedestal, I know I can always count on him no matter what. My mom was always there for me when I was sick or when I needed to be at a water polo game at 6 am. She drove me every week, twice a week, and hour and a half there, and an hour and a half back from JO practice. She drove me to Thousand Oaks, a 2 hour drive JUST so I could play my JO games. She couldn't fly with me to SJ to watch me at the real thing.. but I know she wished she could have. Though things are different now I never tell her everyday how much I appreciate her and how much I really love her. I have no idea what would happen to me if they died right now. Everytime I even THINK about death, I cry. I'm so scared of what would happen. I don't know if I would see them in Heaven or how I would find them. I don't want to lose my parents. I'm so scared out of my mind of death. FSA;KFA;KJFQHBAE;IC ;I! I want to cry and breakdown right about.... now.