Sin Graph

Sin Graph. Daddy!

I had the scariest dream last night.. If I told you now, you wouldn't think it was scary but for me, I woke up crying.. I've NEVER done that before. Wynnie says it happens to her often or she laughs herself awake, but I never feel anything while I'm dreaming... but last night, I felt half awake and half asleep while dreaming. I felt like that was so real and so close and just so afraid.. I think God is trying to tell me something because when I woke up, I thought of a sin graph? Don't even ask me why.. I really have NO idea, and I don't think it's because we're doing cos, sin, tan graphs in math analysis right now but because I thought about it and in a sin graph, you start in the center and always go back to the center.. Like you go up, and then back and then you go down and then back.. Like yknow what I mean? I know it's probably nerdy but I really think thats why I thought of a sin graph. Because when you stray away from God, you always need to go back to Him. I feel like me screaming daddy wasn't for my earthly father, but for my father in Heaven. As if I'm screaming to Him so that He may hear me or answer my prayers. I know He hears them, and in time He will answer them I just have to be patient. Idk. These thoughts just float around in my mind. I couldn't stop thinking about that dream last night, hopefully it has a meaning and I'll remind myself daily of that sin graph. :)

I don't know why but when I read your blog I just got so angry. I feel like its always a competition between us, whoever gets our friends to like us more or something. Idk, and how you're taking all the easy classes and you're getting good grades and I'm not and I'm like almost failing euro and english.. Sigh, this is so depressing when I compare myself to others. If you can get good grades, why can't I?! I mean, Wynnie has an A in euro.. If I'm lucky I have a B.. Sigh, I'm not even really trying either.. In english I BS all my work. Celinaaaaaa..... wakeeeeee upppp! Get your priorities straight and get your act together. No more of this playing around, pleeease. This is your future at stake.