words are just words

"Running the race Like a mouse in a cage. Getting nowhere but I'm trying, Forging ahead But I'm stuck in the bed, That I made so I'm lying. Eager to please, Trying to be what they need. But I'm so very tired so I've stopped trying to find Any peace in my mind Because it tangles the wires."

Life is so cruel. It brings you up to make you believe that you can be anything when you grow up as long as you try, but that's all bullshit. You can't grow up to be ANYTHING you want to be. You grow up to be who you were destined to be. Destiny already has your life entirely planned out from the day you took your first breath to the day you die. So when you think about it.. You really can't become anything or anybody, you become who you were already chosen to be. But you ask, who chose it for you? Obviously you hadn't. Life makes no sense, you are raised to always try your best.. but what about the times when your best doesn't cut it? What happens then? Who's gonna be the one who has to tell you "Oh sweetie, I know you tried your best.. but your best wasn't enough. Wanna know why? Because there are millions of other people's best that are BETTER than yours." God made the world with no ugliness, with no depravity, with nothing bad. He gave us, well Adam and Eve, a choice whether to just soak in His perfect ambiance that He's created for them.. or to eternally damn everybody else after them. Of course Adam and Eve would choose to make the life for everybody to come after them a living hell, I mean why not? Why is it always 'Oh, how may I help you?' rather than 'Oh, how may I help myself?' People walk all over me just because they assume that it's okay because I have no backbone and that I'll be gladly to drop everything I'm doing to tend to their needs. What about when I need somebody to tend to MY needs? Nobody. All I hear in the silence that surrounds me is the one tear drop that I'll allow myself to shed. Everybody's natural instinct is to fight for themselves no matter who they have to bring down. It just sucks to know that you're always the one who's brought down just for the sake of others success.

I have no idea what I just said, or if it even makes sense. Those are just words of ramble in my thought.