Monday, December 14

Give Me Something To Believe In, Cause I'm Losing Faith

I hate my life. I'm failing high school and I'm never going to make UCLA. If I don't go to UCLA, I don't know what I'll do with my life. My heart is set on becoming a doctor, graduated from UCLA and as far as I'm concerned, Mr. Silva and Mrs. Puzo have taken my dreams away. I hate Mr. Silva so much, I wish that he can just get a raise in Albuquerque so I never have to see him ever again. Why does my life suck so much. I'm such a pessimist now.

SHOOT ME NOW, PLEASE!


katherinee(7:08:32 PM): girl ! dude. just dont worry cause like.. e veryone has their own strengths and stuff. and like okay. you're sitll doing better
(7:08:36 PM): than MORE
(7:08:38 PM): than half of our year
(7:09:09 PM): and it matters more about you doing your best. cause like.. dude who freaking cares
(7:09:11 PM): liek those amazingly smart
(7:09:13 PM): liek stephany yong
(7:09:16 PM): and getting those awards
(7:09:20 PM): and those nerds and stuff like
(7:09:24 PM): okay good for them
(7:09:27 PM): but its just like
(7:09:34 PM): lets just work on our own things you know
(7:09:44 PM): omg
(7:09:47 PM): and you're stilll so smart
(7:09:49 PM): and beautiful
(7:09:51 PM): and funny
(7:09:53 PM): and
(7:09:55 PM): have so much BETTER
(7:09:56 PM): personalities
(7:10:01 PM): than more than 3/4 of the people at our SCHOOL
(7:10:11 PM): and dude
(7:10:14 PM): okay those people who get into the best colleges
(7:10:15 PM): they get in
(7:10:20 PM): and they dont even know what to do with their lives
(7:10:23 PM): anymore. cause its ilke okay i got in
(7:10:24 PM): but NOW what
(7:10:25 PM): and
(7:10:27 PM): also
(7:10:36 PM): its not about the grades you get
(7:10:41 PM): its about the things you learn and how you apply them to your life
(7:10:42 PM): which is kinda
(7:10:43 PM): hypocritical
(7:10:44 PM): for me
(7:10:45 PM): because
(7:10:47 PM): i CARE
(7:10:49 PM): about my grades so much too
(7:10:52 PM): and i understand how you feel
(7:10:53 PM): but
(7:10:59 PM): people
(7:11:04 PM): who get into good colleges
(7:11:10 PM): it odesnt meant
(7:11:13 PM): they're gonna be successful
(7:11:14 PM): later on in life
(7:11:19 PM): like my math teacher
(7:11:20 PM): ms redcher..
(7:11:23 PM): she went to a cal state
(7:11:27 PM): and then she
(7:11:30 PM): transfered to UCLA
(7:11:35 PM): and there are so many people
(7:11:38 PM): who got accepted ot harvard
(7:11:39 PM): and brown
(7:11:41 PM): and then after
(7:11:47 PM): they just dont know
(7:11:48 PM): what to do
(7:11:51 PM): they have the diploma
(7:11:52 PM): and everything
(7:11:54 PM): but like
(7:11:58 PM): they waster their lives away
(7:11:59 PM): and
(7:12:03 PM): just because you get good grades
(7:12:08 PM): doesnt mean that yo're gonna do well in life
(7:12:11 PM): some people who are smart
(7:12:13 PM): are just socially awkward
(7:12:18 PM): or have other problems
(7:12:21 PM): and they cant work well
(7:12:23 PM): with people in the REAL world
(7:12:25 PM): which means
(7:12:27 PM): who cares if they're smart
(7:12:30 PM): they need to be hermits
(7:12:32 PM): somehwere in the corner
(7:12:32 PM): but YOU
(7:12:35 PM): are someone who has POTENTIAL
(7:12:36 PM): to be great
(7:12:38 PM): you have DETERMINIATION
(7:12:39 PM): and
(7:12:39 PM): DRIVE
(7:12:40 PM): and ambition
(7:12:42 PM): and dreams
(7:12:43 PM): and friends.
(7:12:47 PM): and people who love
(7:12:48 PM): and care for you
(7:12:51 PM): and will be there for you
(7:12:53 PM): every step of the way
(7:12:56 PM): and even if you fall
(7:12:58 PM): we're there to catch you
(7:13:02 PM): do you honsetly think that
(7:13:04 PM): like your true friends
(7:13:07 PM): will leave you hanging
(7:13:09 PM): if you're going through a hard time
(7:13:11 PM): or youre suffering
(7:13:13 PM): or you need smoething
(7:13:14 PM): of course not
katttherinee (7:14:44 PM): in all things GOd works for the good of His people
katttherinee (7:14:47 PM): you know. and he has a plan for you
katttherinee (7:14:50 PM): idk what it is.but i'm sure its great
katttherinee (7:14:53 PM): adn im sure wherever you GO
katttherinee (7:14:58 PM): youre gonna touch the lives of everyone you meet
katttherinee (7:14:59 PM): and
katttherinee (7:15:05 PM): i guess
katttherinee (7:15:08 PM): we just have to trust in Him
katttherinee (7:15:09 PM): cause i find it so hard
katttherinee (7:15:14 PM): like. i always want to do things my way
katttherinee (7:15:19 PM): and have things happen the way i planned them out to be
katttherinee (7:15:23 PM): but.. God knows better than i do
katttherinee (7:15:27 PM): and he knows where my life is headed
katttherinee (7:15:28 PM): and at least
katttherinee (7:15:30 PM): one thing
katttherinee (7:15:33 PM): we have that so many peopel don't
katttherinee (7:15:37 PM): is the assurance and the faith
katttherinee (7:15:41 PM): to know that God is gonna be there for us
katttherinee (7:15:45 PM): no matter what point we are in our lives
katttherinee (7:15:47 PM): or what we're going through
katttherinee (7:15:51 PM): and that's good enough
katttherinee (7:15:54 PM): he'll pick us up
katttherinee (7:15:56 PM): when we're stuck in that hole
katttherinee (7:16:02 PM): and
katttherinee (7:16:04 PM): if he's gonna take us somewhere
katttherinee (7:16:08 PM): and we're gonna have to struggle
katttherinee (7:16:16 PM): then i guess.. we just have to trust in His ultimate plan
katttherinee (7:16:19 PM): and as christians
katttherinee (7:16:22 PM): even if WE fail
katttherinee (7:16:31 PM): we still know that God's plan hasn't
katttherinee (7:16:39 PM): and we're so lucky
katttherinee (7:16:45 PM): because non-christians who go to the best colleges make the best money
katttherinee (7:16:49 PM): and outwardly have the perfect life
katttherinee (7:16:52 PM): they dont have that
katttherinee (7:16:55 PM): and they have nothing after THIs life.
katttherinee (7:17:18 PM): and nothing will ever satisfy
katttherinee (7:17:25 PM): but we can be satisfied in God

My motivator in life. I freaking love this girl so much! There's a reason why God placed her in my life and there's a reason why she's my bestfriend and I can tell her anything. Her faith and compassion for others inspire me to be compassionate towards others. There's no way I could live without her. I freaking love you kchung!

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